I don't "experiment" with drugs. I'm not a fucking lab rat. I research as much as I can about a variety of substances out of pure interest and should the occasion arise when I get to try something new, I won't end up dying. This is where most people go wrong, and many people die. Drugs on their own are not deadly. Misinformation, conservatism and being a stupid human are what make them so.
I watch Drugs Inc because I like to see how different drugs are made, but overall the show is pretty much a farce. I was watching the ecstasy episode with my dad when the show starting talking about comedowns. My dad tells me about his friend who did ecstasy and said he was depressed for days after taking it. I nodded but in my head, I thought "you have no fucking idea..."
I don't do pressed pills. Ever. If in this wake of people dying from dirty E pills, you still find the necessity to do them, I hope your funeral is at least decent. Don't be a lab rat.
I don't do mushrooms, acid or ketamine. I probably never will. I feel like I'm always on the verge of ending my life and I fear if I lose even the slightest grip on my self, I'll jump the bridge. So I don't put things in my body that might drive my mind down that road.
I thought I might have become allergic to alcohol recently because I was throwing up every time I drank. Then I realized it was because I was binge drinking every time I drank. Now I pay a little more attention because I don't want my liver to hate me.
In the end, I think it's fine to try drugs if you want to. I think laws should be changed and drugs should be regulated. But that time is far to come. What we need now is people to smarten up and stop experimenting. Stigma needs to die. I might try coke or heroin one day but not before I know what's safe to do. And if you think that might be fucked, then you haven't listened to anything I've said. I'm not a lab rat, but I'm going to push my brain and my body as far as I can in my time on earth.
