Everyone certainly finds happiness in a variety of subjects and areas. Most commonly I'd say in love, money, and in living stress-free, overall. What I've realized is that as people pursue a harmonious future, they try to cling to their days in the past. We want time machines to take us back to when we were cuddling a sweetheart instead of being single or getting As in grade eleven instead of Cs in university. Working part time and no bills. Concerts, movie dates and climbing trees, oh please just take us back. Now all we have are interviews, seduction classes and guys who don't answer calls.
But in the depths of all the sadness, there is great potential to be happy. There's potential in music and nature; these impeccable entities that exist beyond the power of money or human interference. I sometimes wish I could live the life I had in high school. But this is unfair to the life I have now, for it could be marginally more desirable if I made the effort. It honestly is, though. I just have a hard time accepting that some days.
Because it is hard to realize that your life is ultimately meaningless. And everything you do is to be forgotten. And everyone you ever cherish will fade. All this is essentially where unhappiness stems out of. The incapability to wholly accept that everything but impermanence itself is impermanent. To acknowledge these unfortunate facts as necessary and liberating gives us the quality of finding happiness in everything. In simply existing. With this, we can be grateful for our tiny sliver of time. All the simplicity, the inconsistency, the constant rejection and acceptance we face. There is no god-given plan but this is the scheme or our lives and I am learning to embrace it.
